Stop overthinking. Not everyone is as good at expressing their thoughts. Not everyone is good at listening to yours. Not everybody is equipped with the same sensitivity socket.
Stop blaming your past, your childhood tragedy for your behavior in the present. Trust me it's just a way of telling people that you're a certain person because of what happened 10000 years ago; which might be true but not justifiable to everyone.
Stop taking life too seriously. Start living. Parents will grow old. Siblings will no longer be your only secret keepers. Friends will have their own lives and KIDS. Everybody will change and get on with life so should you.
People are there to respond to only happy thoughts and conversations. It only makes sense. Everybody has their own problems to deal with. Move on and stop claiming that you have the worst possible life and situations to deal with.
Live on the dreams you have saved for tomorrow. Thrive on the oodles of joy you get because your younger brother just had a baby. Your cousin got engaged. Your baby sister passed out of college. Your best friend got proposed to. You got a promotion. Your roommate found a bigger and a better place for both of you. You planned a trip with your best friend. You slept peacefully last night. All this and more!
Last but not the least-
Don't be afraid to experience melancholy. Don't fear sadness and tearful heartache. Don't avoid being mad, upset and gloomy.
Give yourself time to seep in these emotions but get up the next day/ moment and tell yourself you are ready to face the world without any inhibitions. You're ready.
You are you and you have the right to feel the way you do when you do. You will still laugh hard, crack not-so-funny jokes and have a fucking awesome time at a Saturday night party. For real.
I say-
Emotions are a part of me. An organ that helps me get along with life.
I am not necessarily depressed when I cry to my heart's extent and I am not necessarily on ecstasy when I guffaw till my belly hurts.
I just live.
