walking down the yellow brick road

Walking down the brick road with a cup of peach ice tea in hand, sipping a chilled sip as if it’s devouring my pain with its intrinsic quality of abating the heat. Tall edifices standing against me all around the area, where ever I could see I just found a huge building with a big name on the top of it, stating “we are the moguls of business”; “Yes we are the biggest corporate”.

Walking down the spotless and squeaky clean brick road I saw people passing by. Some were moving in herds laughing and quirking as if they were having the time of their lives in slavery embodied organizations. Some were discussing serious business strategies. Some were just thinking while smoking as the breezy wind was blowing. Some were on the phone as if all the business deals were to be cracked by them at that very hour. Some were sipping away the blues all alone like me.

I went there to get my money transferred in a bank account, got excited by a Nestea counter and I thought of picking up a glass of ice tea as the counter looked pretty attractive. I realized that however filled the world looks like ultimately each one is on its own. Every existence has its own story to tell. Like this ice tea whose purpose was to quench the thirst of a throat that is dehydrated in the scorching heat. Same way we are fighting for our existence every day in this world. I was all alone even with a lot of friends around, I felt alone. I came here to find a life, leaving behind my family, my friends, my siblings thinking will achieve a quality of life here. In fact, it deteriorated without the required support system and with too many unlike minds to handle.

In these 3 years of living in Delhi I have seen and taken too much, to understand that this is not what we are looking for, what I am looking for. It was different and hurting a lot of times. It is not that nobody was there. You have friends you can party wherever and whenever you want. You can still chill and hang around with your colleagues. You can talk to whomsoever you want. But what is the use when you have no one to actually hear you out and understand the purpose of your living. People fight, argue and mouth bad words because their ego should be given more importance.

If you are not smart in the city you are taken as a fool. They literally eat you up. They eat your individuality and what you were. Then you are very proud of your new avatar because the reason you state is “big ruthless city has made me this and taught a lot of things so that I can live without the mercy of a bigger egoistic soul”. You start fighting, start hating and start abusing and start explaining yourself by saying that the other person did the same to me so why shoudn’t I?

Ha it is so funny sometimes, that wherever you go you find confused people- who are doing something else and want completely different things in life. They don’t know what they want, what they do and what they often talk. They have weird reasons of doing something horrible to the other person and then to justify the same they will go to any heights of explanation which would stop making sense after a while and then you would say “oh please let it go”. Delhi does this to you. Delhi people are like that. When I say Delhi people it simply means people who live here and not who belong here. I am not a regionalist neither I stereotype things but their DNAs are supposed to be this way and it is so infectious that people who don’t belong here also start believing in their lives' mantras.

Maybe we are so caught up in this mesh that sometimes we forget to live simple and talk simple. Have you realized that our feelings were never complex when we were simple; we deliberately want our feelings to be complicated to call ourselves the part of this whole ‘we are so cool’ scenario.

We don’t want to be simple anymore. We want to hurt, get hurt, show our ‘nothing affects me’, ‘go fuck yourself’, ‘I give a fuck’ attitude and everything falling under the genre of life @ metro.

We act crazy, party, drink, laugh , bitch, have fun, shop, watch movies at multiplexes, dine at the best of the places, meet new people, talk to them, laugh with them and upload everything on facebook showing the world that how happy we are, and how fantastic is our life.

But nobody realizes when the day ends we end up all ALONE.